Rambling a of a man that can not sleep

I've tried to go to sleep three times now. It's not working. I have t had a bunch of caffeine or anything that would keep me up. I've done what they suggest. They say to change location. So I've tried the floor. I've tried the chair. I've even tried the couch. Not happening. My mind and body will not shut down.

My kids are growing up so fast. It's like I blinked and Jellybean sprouted up like a weed. It feels like just yesterday I was holding her in my hands and taking a picture with her and she fit in my hands. Now she can reach the countertops. Sissy is getting smarter and smarter every day. She uses words that I would never expect a seven year old to use. She is doing a b honor roll she was in kindergarten just the other day too it seems. Bubba is getting bigger. He is talking more than he ever has. Thanks to sissy and my wife. They make him talk. It's great. I worry though. He seems to be falling behind on other things. But what parent doesn't worry a out their kids. I remember taking pictures of them all and them being so tiny. Where and what will they be like in another seven years?

This world is in a death spin and it scares the fucking shit out of me. We have countries that are striving to get nuclear weapon development. They're not the countries that need to be doing that. If they do that America is gone. All it takes is a push of a button and boom the powerhouse that we are is gone. Then you have our lovely wonderful president. What the fuck is going on with him. He's saying one thing and doing another. He said that Bush was very secretive about what he was doing. But fast forward four years later and he's dong the same damn thing. He talks about how we need to change guns laws to keep guns out of criminal hands. Good fucking luck!! Mr. Obama I hate to te you but no matter what kind of background checks you do on people the criminals are still going to have their guns. They get their guns from secretive places and don't and never will have to do the background check. The only thing that your background check will do is take guns out of the hands of people that deserve or need the gun to protect themselves or their property. Not everyone lives with a security force like your family does. The rest of us have to wait for the police to show up. So what are we suppose to do. "Mr. Robber please continue robbing my house, beating my family up, and just doing what you want while we wait for the cops to come get you. I would shoot your ass but because of the background check President Obama says I can't have a gun." Fuck you no thanks!! I hope that someone comes to their senses if your stupid plan does come to a vote and the impeach your ass for breaking our constitutional right. That'll be the day though. Because we all know that if that even became a thought everyone would be screaming at the top of their lungs that the reason that the impeachment process was even started was because of his color. Fuck that it would not be. It would be because he's an idiot and he's trying to take away the right to bare arms. The right to protect myself, family, and property. So take your it's because he's black comment and shove it up your ass. By the way for y'all that haven't really paid attention to what he wants to add to the check. It the check was to change he wouldn't even be able to pass his own check. He can barely pass the check now. Because there is questions on there that he has yet to even answer to us. Where were you born? Produce a birth certificate. Things of that nature.

Well gotta go. I wanted to keep writing but the baby is stirring and it's my turn.
Peace, love, and Texas country.