Goodbye for probably a really long time

Well it decided to wife this in conjunction. With the fact that everything seems to be falling apart on me. Bills and money are not catching up to each other. I still haven't found a job. It's hard to find a job when you have a cruddy driving record like mine and the only "certification" I have is to drive a commercial vehicle. It's almost to the point that I'm even considering flipping burgers if I have to. I've got bills that need to be paid. I've got a car that I need to pay for. I have child support that needs to be paid. I've got a cell phone that needs to be paid so that I can get get a job. How else would a possible employer get hold of me? For y'all that don't know or haven't figured it out yet. My blogs and my videos are done through my cell phone. So once I lose the phone I lose the connection to my blogs and my videos. So there goes any chance of benefiting from a sudden rush of Adsense activity. They tell you that the best way to make Adsense work best for you is to have a constant flow of traffic coming to your page by putting out content on a regularly scheduled basis. Well I SUCK at that. I try my best to put out as much content as I can. But I know it's not enough and not good enough to get a good turn out.

All I want to to say is that I enjoyed all the well wishes on my 30th birthday to all that knew. I kinda like the fact that we got a new pipe on my birthday. From now on I can say "On my 30th birthday Francis I was chosen as a pope." That is great. Now yes I'm not a Catholic. But still that is something huge to the world. I just hope that all these goals and standards that people are hoping for out of Pope Francis I will be able to happen. The one thing I don't agree with is that all the Hispanics are saying that at least now that they have a Hispanic Pope that the Hispanic race with benefit from it. Now keep in mind Hispanic race the Pope is not out there to tend to just one group of people. Is is the Pope for ALL people. He is the man of God that shares his word and spreads his word and enforces his word. No matter race, gender, or nationality.

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Aspirations

I aspire to be the best dad and husband I can be. There are a lot of examples of great men out there. But then there are the people out there that say don't copy what someone else does do your own thing. I do agree with that. But we all know that's hard to do. You see someone doing a great job you want that for yourself and your family. A great example is a guy on YouTube that I subscribe to. He has chose to put his life and family out there for us to all see. His kids, wife, and himself seems all happy. Shaycarl is a great guy. Hilarious, smart, and very supportive of his kids and wife. The question is how do I get there for my wife and kids? I love to make people laugh, embarrass my kids, and help my family with everything that they need. Enlighten them with knowledge that I have.

This blog is about aspirations. I've covered part of that. Another part of my aspirations is to gain popularity on blogger and youtube. The more popularity I get the more I make if the people treat me right. Adsense is the way to make it for people that don't know how it works. The ads that pop up in YouTube videos and the ads that are in the blog pages on blogger blogs. The more clicks we get on those ads the more it helps the creator out. Most people ignore them or x out of them. But what you don't realize is that just the click helps. Not buying into the ad. Even though you should probably buy into the ads product. Because a lot of the time the ads are something that you would appreciate or enjoy. Most of the time the ads have something to do with what you're reading or watching. Google is good about placing the right ads at the right time. This is why I ask y'all that read my blogs to enjoy, comment, share, subscribe, and click some ads. Because no matter what part of that you do it helps me out. I appreciate all that y'all do for me and my family.

I aspire to be a person that people can look up to. I want to be that person that people say "Look at that guy I wish I could speak my mind that way. I wish that I could be that much of a free spirit." I wish I could be popular like a lot of the people that have been nice enough to try to help me out and give me suggestions. Y'all know who y'all are. Actually to be honest I can't get the blogger app to +(name) y'all. So all I can do is thank y'all that way. Since my iPhone is the only way that I do my videos and blogs right now. Another reason I want to become popular and start the paying out of Adsense. So I can get a laptop and maybe some Internet for the house.

On another note not an aspiration but a plea. I asked on google+ and all my other social networks but didn't get much success. I want to do blogs and vlogs that people want to read, see, or hear also. Not just my nonsense ranting. I want to have communication/interaction with the people that are nice enough to read my blogs.

Thanks for reading this rant.

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Peace love and Texas contry.

Rambling a of a man that can not sleep

I've tried to go to sleep three times now. It's not working. I have t had a bunch of caffeine or anything that would keep me up. I've done what they suggest. They say to change location. So I've tried the floor. I've tried the chair. I've even tried the couch. Not happening. My mind and body will not shut down.

My kids are growing up so fast. It's like I blinked and Jellybean sprouted up like a weed. It feels like just yesterday I was holding her in my hands and taking a picture with her and she fit in my hands. Now she can reach the countertops. Sissy is getting smarter and smarter every day. She uses words that I would never expect a seven year old to use. She is doing a b honor roll she was in kindergarten just the other day too it seems. Bubba is getting bigger. He is talking more than he ever has. Thanks to sissy and my wife. They make him talk. It's great. I worry though. He seems to be falling behind on other things. But what parent doesn't worry a out their kids. I remember taking pictures of them all and them being so tiny. Where and what will they be like in another seven years?

This world is in a death spin and it scares the fucking shit out of me. We have countries that are striving to get nuclear weapon development. They're not the countries that need to be doing that. If they do that America is gone. All it takes is a push of a button and boom the powerhouse that we are is gone. Then you have our lovely wonderful president. What the fuck is going on with him. He's saying one thing and doing another. He said that Bush was very secretive about what he was doing. But fast forward four years later and he's dong the same damn thing. He talks about how we need to change guns laws to keep guns out of criminal hands. Good fucking luck!! Mr. Obama I hate to te you but no matter what kind of background checks you do on people the criminals are still going to have their guns. They get their guns from secretive places and don't and never will have to do the background check. The only thing that your background check will do is take guns out of the hands of people that deserve or need the gun to protect themselves or their property. Not everyone lives with a security force like your family does. The rest of us have to wait for the police to show up. So what are we suppose to do. "Mr. Robber please continue robbing my house, beating my family up, and just doing what you want while we wait for the cops to come get you. I would shoot your ass but because of the background check President Obama says I can't have a gun." Fuck you no thanks!! I hope that someone comes to their senses if your stupid plan does come to a vote and the impeach your ass for breaking our constitutional right. That'll be the day though. Because we all know that if that even became a thought everyone would be screaming at the top of their lungs that the reason that the impeachment process was even started was because of his color. Fuck that it would not be. It would be because he's an idiot and he's trying to take away the right to bare arms. The right to protect myself, family, and property. So take your it's because he's black comment and shove it up your ass. By the way for y'all that haven't really paid attention to what he wants to add to the check. It the check was to change he wouldn't even be able to pass his own check. He can barely pass the check now. Because there is questions on there that he has yet to even answer to us. Where were you born? Produce a birth certificate. Things of that nature.

Well gotta go. I wanted to keep writing but the baby is stirring and it's my turn.
Peace, love, and Texas country.

XBOX IT CAN'T BE TRUE!!!

XBOX it can not be true!? If I'm reading right you are going to mess all kinds of people up. The whole gaming community is based on going over to a buddy's house and playing a game you have but your buddy doesn't. Making it where a game can only be played on one console and only one console is stupid as fuck! A good example of stupidity is that GameStop is made for people that buy a game then either beat it or just don't like it and want to make at least some of their money back. Activation codes? Really? Has Microsoft has not learned its lesson yet? Microsoft wants to stop piracy by put activation codes on games. Come on now. People have been pirating your products for years and years! Hello WINDOWS!!! Every version of windows has been pirated. No matter how bad the version was. People just wanted to stay up to date an not pay your over priced rates. If you want to make your games where they are not able to be resold then slash the prices majorly and don't make us pay $50 a game. Just incase I don't like the game as much as I thought I would. But on the plus side at least you will finally might put a blu-ray player. It's taken long enough. I know y'all made an add on. But from what I hear it was worthless. I never looked into it because I had a ps3 when you were talking about blu-rays. Y'all need to some serious thinking and do some major catching up to Playstation. They've had blu-ray before y'all. They have been introducing more technology in their gaming system before y'all. I love that y'all have the kinect. That is the only thing y'all have over the Playstation systems.



Here is the article that I found out about the changes that might come.

http://www.theverge.com/2013/2/6/3958672/new-xbox-always-online-game-activation-codes-rumor

The End?

So here we are creeping up on the famous day. What day is the you ask? December 22, 2012. I really don't get it. Why is it that everyone is worried about his one? Is it going to be like y2k? Everyone counting down to the second then it be nothing? Or June 6, 2006? Oh know watch out there were to many 6's there and that was going to be the end of the world too. Then there was July 7, 2007? There was supposed to be some grand show then also. I mean what is all the hype about this stupid day? The local casino that is owned by the Indians down here are even playing off it. They are doing some big give away on the 22nd. Is it going to be like Terminator? Some random mushroom cloud and a shockwave of heat and nuclear material with some woman hanging onto a chain link fence? Maybe all the volcanos will erupt all at the same time? Maybe even one in Los Angeles? Or maybe out of no where there will be these aliens that show up and zap us with a laser that clears like 100 mile radius? Or is it just going to be like the odometer on a car? Just another year on the planet? Someone told me that today when I was talking to them a out it. That they had watched a documentary on this Mayan calendar this. The way they explained it to me is that it'd you look at their calendar it seems to just start over. Like a car when you reach a 999,999 miles and you go that one mile more the car doesn't just stop because the odometer reached 1,000,000 miles. It just zeros everything out and starts counting again. So the way that I look at it is that on December 22, 2012 at 11:11 we will reach our millionth mile and we will keep on rolling and keep on trucking. All the hype is for nothing but news ratings. Y'all have a great millionth mile. Please subscribe, share, and enjoy. Suggestions on the next blog are welcome. You want to hear my opinion on something just give me the topic and ill see what I can do with it.

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227am What Goes On In My Head

There are a lot of things that are going on in this head of mine. There is the shooting that still hangs over everyone's heads. There is the Westboro Baptist Church jerkoffs threatening to picket the funerals of the poor victims. What a bunch of dickheads. But we all know that. Then there is Anonymous that's firing back and saying that they will do what it takes to preserve the memory of the kids and teachers. Interesting fact I heard from my wife today that the Texas school district is going to let their teachers take a class and carry a concealed weapon. Good for them. That is what needs to happen everywhere. The reason I say this is because of all the school shootings. Not just this one not just the last few ALL. Like I said in my previous blog if there was just someone person that could stop or slow the shooter down till the cops got there then the numbers wouldn't of gotten so bad. Now let me clarify something. By the Texas school district saying its ok to carry doesn't mean all the schools in Texas are ok'd to carry. The Texas school district is the state schools not public schools. But I would love to see it become a more open subject of discussion on here or even in school board meetings. But we all know that it would never become a public school discussion.
Unemployment sucks!!!! I have tried my damnedest to figure out how and where I could get a job in this economy that has been made. No one is hiring. If they are hiring it is for highly qualified position. I'm not a oil rig grunt. I'm not a Ac tech or a plumber or have experience doing remodeling. It would be nice. But I can't do any of that. I can learn. If given the opportunity. I pick shit up real quick. Like I did when I worked with my uncle. He was hanging vinyl siding and brought me on. I learned the best way to use a measuring tape, hammer, hang the siding, cut holes for drier vents, and anything else that goes along with it. But there inlies the problem. We don't have a big demand for vinyl siding here. Everyone wants brick. Or the home manufactures and home owners associations won't let it be on a house. So there goes that experience to my benefit. I know how to weld too. But oh wait not certified. So you know what happens? I start at the bottom. Welders helper. Minimum wage until they think I'm good enough to move up a step. The last place I worked at that I was using my welding experience there were guys there for five years and they were still one step above helper. The actual welders were either certified or been there for like 20 years. So yeah. Lots of prosperity there. So what do I do to help make an income you ask? I try to be popular on here and make subscriptions and get people to click on the Adsense ads. Hoping one day either I'll get a bunch of people that like my stuff and click the ads and get me paid or that google sees that I'm popular and makes me a true "partner" like some of the lucky folks out there. Where all they have to do is do what that enjoy. I also do youtube videos hoping for the same. Doing this while trying to find a job. I guess that's why a lot of my blogs are middle of the night. My videos are the kids and sometimes me talking about what I think or feel. Look me up sometime it be nice subscribe to both would be better. Not hard to find me. Same username TrailerhoodCowboy. There is a Toby Keith song but not that one. The actual channel called trailerhoodcowboy. It has my beautiful Jellybean crawling towards you with a goofy smile.
Did you know that with all hatred and anger in this world we are never going to get better. We are always going to be at war with someone over something. It's sad. I have my things that bother me about certain people. But I don't let it destroy me or my life. Not everyone fits so why project it on everyone. As I have told people of all races, creeds, religions, sexual preferences, and genders. "I won't use the stereotype against you until you earn that stereotype." No one has ever disagreed with my theory. If you can show me your a well educated level headed person the. Lets go. But you want to be that bottom feeder that lives off everyone else's income and get food and money cause everyone paid the taxes for you to be able to do that then get away from me before I say something and it gets really fucking ugly. Now I k is that there are people that call on hard times need some help. Get some food stamps or some needy family money. But don't take it and make it where you keep getting it and don't ever have to worry about looking to get out. Those are the ones I don't like. The ones that stay there so that they don't have to worry about food or money on purpose. FUCK YOU BOTTOM FEEDING MOTHER FUCKERS!! (This is why I put that warning at the front door it the warning of what comes outta my mouth may be offensive proceed with caution) I should find a way to do like the song says. But for me it would be different. There will be a $5 fine for complaints and $10 fine for bitching that I'm to offensive. (Song is $5 fine for whining)
Well I guess I'm done for now. Peace love and Texas country. Don't for get to tip your doorman and hit the waitress. Lol Jo.

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The Right Man

I know that l'll never be the right man or the perfect man. I know that I fucked up in the past. I know that I've lied, cheated, and been a complete jackass. I'm sorry for that. I have not been the right father for our children. I have not been the right man for anything lately. I know that I've fallen down and can't seem to get up.
I can't be the right man or the dream man. But I can be the best man. I want to be the best man that I can offer to you. I am trying to be the man that you want and need. I'm trying to give the best man that out kids need. I'm trying to be the best father that they could ever imagine. I'm working on the lieing. But I am done with the cheating and that is a guarantee. Hold me to it I will always love you. I will always want to be that man standing next to you when our kids have their weddings. I want to be that man that crawls into the bed with you and dies with you. Because I don't believe that I could ever live without you. All I can offer is the best man. I love you Kimberly Sayers-Puckett.

The Gun Issue

I'm sitting here after a very very sad day. It started out like normal. Woke up, took Bug to school, did my joking I love you's until she replied to me at the drop off line, drove home, took an hour or so nap, then spent some time with the wife and Jellybean. As my wife is going to take a shower I decide you know what let me go on google plus and see what's going on in the world. Well come to find out some dumb ass decided to take it upon himself and shoot up an elementary school. About the time I'm reading this my wife pops out of the bedroom and says " we are not having anymore kids!!! Not in a world that shit like this happens in!!!" We both discussed it and agreed. The world has went to hell and a hand basket when a person goes and shoots up an elementary school. Kindergarten students at that!!! They are new! They are suppose to be having fun and loving school. Not hating it in the first year. What the hell did those innocent little spirits do to him? Nothing at all. There are now loads of lives that are forever changed by this stupid ass. Not just the parents, spouses, and families that lost someone today. The whole school is now effected. Kids are going to be like war vets. Coming back to school and ducking and covering at every single noise. Teachers are going to start teaching differently to protect themselves and their kids. In turn that may hurt the kids in the end because the teacher may miss something and there goes that piece of information that that child(ren) needed. It is now 10 days till Christmas. What kind if Christmas is it going to be for a whole town. Twenty something funerals are going to have to happen in the next week or so. What kinda mood is that? That's not fair. This jackass gets to come into a school shoot a bunch of innocent children and take the pussy way out by killing himself?! Fuck that. I say if you got the balls to get tactical clothing bust proof vest and march into anywhere you better either be taken out in handcuffs or a body bag but not from your gun. From a police officer or someone that is defending themselves. A bullet to the head by yourself is not the answer dumb ass. I hope that special place for you in hell is hot enough for you and that it's in a huge drought.
My next part may offend more people if I haven't already offended and lost most of y'all already.
The debate really got heated up today but its always going on. It always seems to flair up when some mass shooting happens. Here's my thing. People are talking about get rid of the guns. Control the guns. Blah blah blah. There is gun control. In some states. Then there is gun sales. Texas you can buy a gun. You can buy a gun anywhere in America. But in Texas for you to carry that gun you need to pass a test. You have to shoot a certain diameter on a target. You have to show you know gun safety. You have to prove to them that you're not just some two bit crack head that wants to protect his cardboard box and crack rocks. Yes we have had our school shootings. Yes we have had "mass" shootings. But here is where the difference is. In Texas we are not afraid to shoot back. Because we have the right to carry. So when these shootings happen it doesn't turn out as bad. The bad guy fires off one and gets multiple back in return. That's why we don't have dumb asses like the joker jackass doing shit like that here. Because anyone that has lived in Texas for more than 5 minutes knows that there are concealed weapons all around you at all times. So no one would march into a theatre and fire off because once again one round goes off and they get ten returned to them. My point is that it's not take the guns away. Put the guns in responsible hands. Let people have their guns. Let people defend their property, workplace, and place of entertainment. Don't tell us that we can't have protection. The police are not always right around the corner. My daughter is lucky. She literally is 1 minute from a police station if they put their foot into it at her school. But we aren't all that lucky. Sometimes with the way that no one respects lights and sirens, traffic, or other hold ups it takes them a long time to get to a call. Sometimes action needs to be take. Right then and there. Lets say that teacher was packing she. He came in that room. The minute she saw that gun she could of taken him down. Or the vice principal. Or the parent that made the first call. Or another teacher. There is so many ways that the school could of been protected. Don't get me wrong guns are not the answer to everything. Because everyone goes on that guns are the problem with our society. No there is a lot of FBI ga wrong with our society and guns is not a big one. Guns do t kill people, people kill people. Guns don't just hop up and go to a school, mall, or mass gathering of people and start shooting themselves off. A person picks that gun up and pulls the trigger after they point it at someone. So kiss my ass on that one. You want a better society? Whoop your kids ass when they act up. These kids go around getting in fights and disrespecting themselves, their parents, and any adult they see unless that adult is smoking weed, rapping, or just being straight up rude. I'll tell you this now. My daughters or son ever speak to me the way that I hear some these kids talk to their mommas in the middle of Walmart at the age of 6 or 7. Wow their feet would not touch the ground all the way to the car. What ever happen to your momma being able to lean over whisper "Do I need to take you to the restroom?" And you straightened up quick! Stop letting your kids play grand theft auto at 6!!! They shouldn't learn about theft, guns, prostitutes, drugs, and that crap that fucking early!! Make your kids go outside!! Make them socialize. I used to wake up eat breakfast and be itching to get out the door. I would t come back in unless it was for food, drink, or bathroom break till the street lights came on. Yes I had NES, genesis, and ps1. But my life did not revolve around it. My mom wouldn't let it. Kids have no imagination. Kids can't go to their room anymore and play. That want the newest electronic toy, iPad, A PHONE (WTF), you name it so they can zombie out. Then to top it all off we have the mental diseases that are going on that are not getting treated. I saw a comic that explained it simply that there are more steps to get mental help than to get a gun. You make it easier for people to get the right treatment they get better. I'm an example of that. I used to have some major anger issues and infidelity issues. Found out I am bipolar. Found out how to manage it along with the medication. Better person overall.

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What A Wonderful Time Of Year

This is the time of year that I do not look forward to. The holidays bring out the worst in everyone. Everyone gets grumpy, rude, and just plain outta hand. You go to the malls or the stores and everyone is out for themselves. They have no courtesy. All manners go out the window. I know it was a bad movie but that Arnold movie about him trying to get is son a certain toy is the truest thing on Earth. Everyone is fighting for the same thing with no care for anyone else.
Then you have the stores. Wow! They love this time of year. They make all kinds of deals for the Christmas shopper. The thing is that the deals are not really that much of a deal. Spend this amount and get this. When in all actuality the thing they are giving you is no where close worth the money you just spent But yet everyone falls for it. My wife and I fell for it. You know why we all fall for it? Because we want our kids to have a great Christmas every Christmas. We don't ever want our kids to have that memory of that one Christmas that Santa, Mom, or Dad didn't give them very much or anything for Christmas. That's one of the reasons that I don't like Christmas. Not that I don't want my kids to have a great Christmas, but I don't like the fact that Christmas has become so commercialized. The stores, toy companies, game makers, and who ever else would help with making a great Christmas make you feel like a bad parent if you don't buy from them.
Then there is the family level. There is all the stresses and worries that have been bothering you or your family all year that seem to just pop up around the holidays. It's guaranteed that there is always going to be some type of strife between someone somehow somewhere. It used to be everyone got together and enjoyed being together as a family and they enjoyed the holidays and not the gifts or drama that is going on. I just hope and pray every year that things will change in this world that everyone will stop worrying about who said or did what and start enjoying that the family is together and that everyone is in good health.
Then we come to the real reason that Christmas is Christmas. Jesus Christ was born. Everyone has seemed to have forgotten that. Without him we wouldn't be who, what, and where we are now. Christmas has been replaced with Xmas. When did it become ok to replace Christ with a X? How is that right? Have we got so lazy that we can't write Christ in front of mas? It amazes me that we have gotten that way.
The thing that just got added on to my list of gripes is Obama. I found out today that instead of having Christmas trees on or in the White House it is holiday trees. I understand that he is whatever religion or nationality he is but why is it that it took him four years to say "You know what? We are not doing Christmas trees we are doing holiday trees." Four years? For four years he has had Christmas trees now this year and for the next three or four, however many it will be, it'll be holiday trees. This just shows how stupid people are getting. Oh I don't want to offend anyone so I'm going to go with the politically correct version and make everyone happy. Well you know what? It doesn't always make everyone happy. There are people that like it one way and there are others that like it another. So of course there is always going to be someone upset. Like me! (Insert laughter). The man needs to hurry up and do his second four because I'm scared of what else he's going to change or do to make people happy that may make things worse. The thing I worry about somewhat is that he's going to make a change that the next President or any of the Presidents after him are going to be able to change. Oh we'll right? I'm just a lone voice in a loud crowd.

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In The Time Of Need

Here I am putting my daughter Jellybean down for a nap and my wife decides to call a number that a friend said to call back. I come out to her sitting on the porch talking and telling no one to talk. Then she starts crying and starts to ask well what does that mean? How soon would he be arrested? How much is it that he needs to pay? Then he starts talking about cars and email addresses and my dad, which I've never met. So he finally says that it needs to be paid by next Monday or on Tuesday he will be arrested. I need y'all to help me out. I need y'all to share my blog and videos with family and friends. Then after you share click all the ads that you possibly can click on. The reason I ask you to do so is because for every ad click on my blog or videos on YouTube I get like .10. Then of course it goes up depending g on popularity. So if google sees that I'm popular then they will issue a check to me that will save my family and kids. At least do it for my kids please.

What a great weekend

Well this weekend was loads of fun. We celebrated Kim's birthday with a backyard almost concert/party. I helped set up the stage and sound with the lead singer of Michael Anthony and The Broken Duckfeet Band. We got the cops called on us at 2 pm. Yea 2 pm. Gotta love when Pandora gets the cops called on you. No one has even started actually playing instruments. Then slowly but surely people started showing up. Wishing happy birthday to the birthday girl. The band got on. Played like four songs. Then we went back to Pandora. Then the next band went on and at 830 the cops show up again. That was the end of the live music. We turned back to Pandora at a VERY low volume. Of course the birthday girl was having a grand old time with the adult punch bowl, pucker shots, 99 bananas shots, mixed drinks, jello shots, and catching up with old friends. Her favorite cake showed up made by her sister. German chocolate is the weakness. Now I know the kiss up cake when I make a mistake. There was pictures through out the night. But not all are available. Then the next day we all hung out and relaxed. Watched the highest float, free fall, and almost longest free fall. Watched Snow White and The Huntsman. Decent movie. All and all it was a great weekend. We as a family and marriage wise need more weekends like that.

Sleepless in San Antonio

Here I lie in bed trying to settle my brain down enough to go to sleep. Yea that ain't working. I keep thinking about how to make my family better. Thinking about how to get money coming in so that there is less financial worries. Worrying about my marriage and my kids.
I need to get a job to keep my self out of trouble for my child support. I need to be a better father to my kids. I need to be a better husband. Then there is the fact that we have the wife and mother-in-law dynamic. Every guy knows what I'm talking about that is married. Both women are trying to take care of me in their own way. Which ends up clashing. Everyone in our house has their issues and are not sure how to approach the issues without totally destroying or damaging things. So what do I do?
Then we have all this election crap. We keep the guy that some say has done us good. Or we put in a new guy and see what he can do. Some say that the debate they had pretty much decided it. What are we as Americans suppose to do? I need a health system that will take care of my kids when they need it and not have to jump through hoops to get the treatment they need. I need the jobs that they promise to start to appear already. Anyone that has or is unemployed knows what it's like to find a job these days. Then there are the jobs that are out there but no one qualifies for because they didn't have the money to get the education they need to get those jobs. So the people that are like me that as I say have " redneck degrees" are stuck with the jobs that pay shitty and go no where. We just end up with the same job title and pay until we just can't do the job anymore.
What is it with this nation that everyone thinks they are better than everyone else. No matter the income no matter the position they think they are better than the guy next to them. San Antonio is like that bad I've noticed. Someone could be in a crappy job with crappy pay but they act like they are one of the big spenders in town just because they have a purse from a flea market that is supposedly coach. Or they get a car that is out of their means just so that when they get out of it or are seen in it people will envy them. Do you know that I've had the same pairs of jeans and shirts for almost 5 years now and still treasure them and take care of them. No I didn't go and buy them all at one time I bought them over time. Yes they are a pricey but I got them when I could afford to get them. Not hey I want a new shirt screw my bills or anything else that I need. Only because I'd taken care of my needs then went to a want. That is what people need to learn. Take care of your needs then if you can move on to wants if you can. If people would follow that simple rule there would be less suffering and money issues and our nation would be in a better place.
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Long time no blog

Well it's been a long time since I blogged and I know it. Here's the updates. I've lost my job. I've been getting treatment for my bipolar. The kids are growing up so fast. Jellybean is starting to walk more. Sissy is in the top of her class. Bubba is getting better at his reading. I'm trying my best to be a better man, husband, and dad I'm working on getting the word out about my blog and my YouTube videos. All I need is suggestions on what to blog or vlog about. I'll do my own commentary once in awhile, mostly actually. But it'd be nice to have some suggestions on what people want to hear my opinion or position on. Politics, family, entertainment, you name it I'm willing I talk about it.

Learning What Bi-Polar Is....

     I just learned that I'm bi-polar. That is what all the blogs have been lately. I reached a very low point in my life. I was forced to go and find out what was wrong with me. Now I appreciate that I was sent there. Now that I've done the treatment that I needed; I'm on that road to being a much better husband, father, and person. I was told that I'm bi-polar. I do things in excess. I spend irrationally. I live off barely any sleep. I'm hyper as all get out at times. But I've been in a very very low selfish place for a long time and I didn't realize what was going on. I knew something was wrong with me but didn't know what. Now that I know I'll be a better person for my family and marriage. I know now that I need to talk. I need to express how I'm feeling and get the right treatment for my issues. Since I have came out of the treatment I've had some hiccups, but I'm heading the right direction. I now am dedicated to the better person that I need and want to be.
     Now that I'm on that better path I'm being that better husband, father, and man. I have been less confrontational and less stressed. My wife and kids are loving the new man that I have came back as. Of course my kids don't know exactly why I left for a while. They know that daddy was sick and had to get better before he could come home. They are not complaining about who and what I am right now. My wife is definitely not complaining. She is finally being treated like the queen that she has deserved to be treated like. She is loving the new relationship and marriage that we have now.
     Well I am going to keep y'all updated on my growth and development. My wife has seen what blogging does for me. What it does for me and what seeing that people are reading and clicking on ads. Lots of people don't know this. But that is how we make money on here and YouTube. Those ads on the videos or on the side of the blog are our ways of making a few extra bucks. Every time that someone clicks on an ad; don't have to buy anything just click we get us stats that eventually can get us paid. Thanks for reading, have a great one.


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What I was

What I was was a monster. What I was was a horrible person. I was a horrible husband. I was a horrible father. I was a horrible man.
Now I am on a mission to be that better man, husband and father. I'm going to manage my anger better. I am going to manage stress level better. I'm going to manage my life better.
I made my mistakes that will keep me from making my wife happy for awhile. The mistakes haunt my wife, so in turn she wont let me get close to her. She is afraid to get close to me.  She is afraid to trust and believe in me because of what and who i was.








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New Me

I am being told that all I am doing is worrying about me. I have got to start considering how other people feel and think. I have been a very selfish person. I have been doing whatever it takes to satisfy myself, but have been passing it off as trying to satisfy everyone else. I need to reinvent myself for the sake of my family and marriage. I need to find a better way to express my feelings. I need to find a better way to decompress. I need to find a better way to accept praise and not let negative effect me as much. The sooner that i find the better ways to handle life the sooner everyone including me will be happier. The sooner that i do what i need to do to make myself a better man, father, and husband; the sooner all our lives will be more enjoyable and peaceful.








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Wondering

    Wondering this earth is all that we are doing. We are all like wild animals. Looking for a safe and comfortable place to exist. We don't want to be somewhere that we are always scared, depressed, or controlled to much. We want to be somewhere that we are loved and appreciated. So we spend our days on this planet looking for that place. We move to different places. We change jobs. We change styles. We shift and move things around till we are comfortable and happy with where, what, and how we are. All that I know is that I'm almost there. I'm almost what and how I am. That will take a little time. But I'll get there. The only part that I'm not comfortable or happy with is where i am at. I want to change the environment, location, and style of living that i am in right now. We will work on this. We will find a solution to all the issues and we will be great. We will be a great family and great parents. We will get where we need to get. 


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How well do you know your spouse?

Me and my wife were watching a movie tonight and I made a statement that started a interesting conversation. "Hey isn't that that girl from transformers?" "The way I could tell was by her tattoo on her shoulder?" All me. Then her reply was... "Where is my tattoo or tattoos?"
Well that sparked a interesting game if you want to call it that. The I'll ask you a question and see if you're right game. We both asked questions and both were on a mission to prove the other didn't know more than the other.
Here is my thing. They say that you are suppose to know every single detail in your spouses life. Scars,tattoos, reasons they cried, reasons they laughed, when they were where, where they were, when things happened for them, why they are who they are. That's supposedly how you know you are with "the one" is when you know it all and don't have to think about it. Well I'm here to say that I'm with who I want ans need in my life and I don't know everything. I don't remember all the funny stories. I don't know all the sad ones either. But I know that I love my wife with all that I have and all I am. Not sure everyone will agree to that thought. There are the people out there that will and do say that if you don't know it all then you're with the wrong person. Well you know what I say... GO FUCK YOURSELF!!! Cause no one is perfect and no one has that fairytale marriage that you see in the movies.
You can say that I'm an asshole. You can say that I'm a jerk. But I'm just open about how a feel with some ways and not open about how I feel with other ways. I guess you could say that I'm not afraid to speak my mind on here. As you can see with this one and the Obama blog. I just feel that everyone should be allowed to express their feelings, thoughts, and emotions however they feel. One person told me a very interesting saying one time. "If you're willing to think it then why be afraid to say it?" Well this is where I feel I can do that. But am I dumb enough to do that in a different environment like work or other places that open speech is not a great idea? No!
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Midnight Thoughts

Here I sit staying up to reset my clock preparing for two weeks of night shift. The mind starts to wonder. As I sit here I start to worry about my wife, my kids, my family, and my life in general. Will I ever be able to provide for my family as much as I should? Will I ever get to the point in life that things will get comfortable?
That's what I always dream of and strive for. I strive to find a way to make more money and a better life. I dream of being a success like others that I see everywhere and around me personally. There are people on blogger, YouTube, and at my work that all seem to getting what they want and need to succeed. What do I need to do or be to get that luck?  Do I take the risk and pay to make make myself possibly popular? Do I just continue with what I'm doing right now? Which what I am doing is posting that I've wrote a new blog or made a new video on YouTube on my social networks. Then sit and hope that people click on the ads, share my blog or video, or give advice or suggestions.
My kids love when I make a new video. Because they know that they are probably going to be the main stars in my videos. Its so cute. They have nicknames and they remain dedicated to the nicknames. The only person that has a hard time sticking to the nicknames is mom. Which is very cute. She will say their names then catch herself in the middle. Its very cute and makes me laugh and brightens my day. The best part is that we get to have some fun and laughter and joy in our day after me having a hard hot day at work. It makes it all worth it.
This is hilarious!!! I'm sitting here watching the military channel. They are showing secret service episodes. They are talking about the history and the methods that the secret service uses for protecting the presidents. Some of the measures they use are hilarious. Welding sewer lids closed? Taking door knobs off doors to rooms over looking a parade route? Removing mailboxes? A little extreme? Hope that the city doesn't ever have to access the sewers on the route in the future. If so they are better off tearing up the sewer lids and replacing them completely. Then send the bill to the president. That reminds me of the time that a president came to campaign at the air port in the city I used to live in. His plane was so heavy that it destroyed the flight line. The city tried to get the government to pay for the repairs. But of course got turned down. So it fell back on the city and airport budget to fix it. What a lovely government we have. They are happy to destroy something and leave it to someone else to fix what they have done wrong. But oh well right.
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It's Expensive To Survive These Days.

    Why is it so expensive to live these days? Everything  is so over priced these days. A box of diapers $50, formula $25.00, gas $3.75, rent $750, clothes $20+  for kids,  and groceries you're lucky to spend less than $200 for a family of 5. How do they expect someone to live and support a family with prices the way they are.
    All I know is that I'm busting my ass to make things work out financially and emotionally for my family so that we can all be happy and comfortable in life.That's why I'm on here and YouTube trying to make a little extra money. I ever want/wanted to do was provide the best that I can for my kids, wife, and self.
   You can't even think about anything fun to do with your family without planning months in advance. Now a days you have to save up for things. It used to never be like that. People used to always go on vacations, trips, and have family outings. Now people save up and do it once a year or once in a lifetime if they can afford it. How sad is that? There is no family togetherness anymore. Everyone goes and does their own thing.  The kids get home from school and go and play their games, listen to their music, or text constantly. The parents get home and watch their shows, make dinner, or just sit do whatever takes them away from the stresses of money, work, or life. You can sit and listen to your grandparents and parents. They are always talking about how everyone would get home and would be together. Dinner was eaten together. What shows were on TV or the radio everyone sat down and enjoyed together. Whatever happened to all that. You know what happen? Technology happened that's what happen. Cell phones, mp3 players, and on demand. No one has a stereo anymore. Oh well right? One voice can not influence a whole world to bring family togetherness back. It's just my opinions and thoughts. Y'all have a great day. Check out my vlogs, random videos that I catch, and just general randomness.

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What a world.

This world is fucked up. People are quick to throw people away like trash just to save a dollar. I had a great job that I enjoyed. But because of the business slowing the office manager started to look for a reason or way to save money so that she would look good. So what does she do you ask? She looked for a reason to let go of the last hired. Which was me. So now I'm back on the looking for a job category. How wonderful. It's hard as hell to find a job right now. Business sucks for everyone so in turn people are not looking to add another person to hire another person to pay another expense. Yes I can go driving again. But most companies want two years or more over the road experience. Which I'm just short of. That is the draw back. Then there is the fact that I don't want or need to work odd hours. All the odd hour jobs are the ones usually hiring because no one wants it. But I just don't want or need a job like that. I want to be able to spend time with my kids and wife. Oh well. Talk to y'all later. Love you munchkin monster bug and Moondust.

The Imagination

The imagination is a wonderful thing. You want a kid to have a great imagination. Then as they grow up you want them to keep the imagination to a point but you want it to be less and less. You want them to start to see reality more than a false world. As an adult you want to have a sense of imagination for games. But when you let your imagination get the better of you and it starts to destroy your life then that's not a good thing. There are people that let it destroy their lives with games, there are people that let it destroy their lives with suspicions, and there are people that let it destroy their lives with anger. My point is that all that really bothers me is when people that I love are effected by it and it ruins them. There should never be a point in your life that you let your imagination come before your family and friends. Thanks for reading.

Obama "Best" President Ever

Why did we vote this guy in? I'm pretty sure that most of the votes that he got were the I don't want to look racist vote. Well that worked real well. Now we are hurting for jobs and money. The thing he will be known for is the United States dropping in credit class in the world. I know I'm not the best person to talk about how great a President he is. I'm not college educated. I'm not upper class money. I'm lower class money where we have to scrape by every paycheck. But the thing that bothers me is the fact that he promised all kinds of reform jobs and better overall. Well Bush may of not been the best President. But at least he got something done. Is it just me or was it convenient that when Obama started hurting in polls he found Osama. But after it all he starts a battle with congress about money and jobs. He even couldn't satisfy anyone enough that the government almost shut down. He constantly takes vacations. He is more worried about campaigning than taking care of the money and job issues that we are having. I hope and pray everyday that when the election comes that people come to their senses and vote for a president that can actually save us from the depression that we are all in. Someone that will actually work for the country and not ride the "I'm the first African American President and family" train. That seems to be the train he has been on and not getting off. I made a blog earlier about how much I "loved" him. I wish I could take bits and pieces of that one but I've deleted and started my blog new. I wish I could remember some of the things that I said that people seemed to agree and see what I was saying and thinking. All I am saying is that I hope that on the next election and the next president does more than sit in the office and enjoy the luxuries of the office and actually works on fixing things and doing things for the country. I'd appreciate if all that read this would share and help me out by clicking on some of the ads that are on my page. Thanks.

Working Hard

So my life consist of driving a truck and going home to my beautiful family. The thing I can't understand is that no matter how hard I work I'm not gonna get the raise that was promised I'm pretty sure. I'm predicting it now.... They are gonna say that they can't afford to give me the raise. I feel that I'm well deserving of it. I'm always on time. I'm always moving never wasting time. I can't control that I had a baby and missed a week for her being in the icu. I work so hard for these guys that I end up with no energy when I get home. So in turn I end up upsetting my wife cause I'm just sitting there. Which is what I don't want. I want to be able to enjoy my time with my wife and kids. But oh well right.

New Beginnings

It's been a while since I posted. I've been so busy fixing myself and starting over. I got married and have been enjoying that. I have 3 wonderful kids. Bug Monster and the newest addition Munchkin. We introduced her to the world on 09/25/2011. I was a very bad guy. I have got rid of that person I was. I'm now making the best of everything. I'm on a mission to make life happy and enjoyable for me and my family. I do apologize to my Moondust for the man I was. That was uncalled for. I love you so much. I can't wait to grow old with you.